Dear June,

Ah! You've been a whirlwind. So much has happened since the month started and so much has changed since we welcomed you.

For one, I am now certain about the moves that will be happening work-wise.

A massive change will be taking place and for the first time in my life, I will be handing in my resignation without having a clear idea of the next step.

Ever since I started working on my personal development and personal beliefs, it's become so clear that I am capable of so much more and that I am the only one who determines my own value.

I've come to experience people who hold the world entirely accountable for their actions, and though it's been a tough pill to swallow, it's one I have decided is worth pondering upon.

Often, we give ourselves a lot of breathing space. We cut ourselves short from our own responsibilities because taking full charge would be "asking too much".

However, in doing so we also let go of our power and our ability to create, and though we may not be used to taking up all that responsibility, doing so is the only way to our true liberation.

So much has been happening in the world, the Genocide in Gaza is taking lives day by day, the housing crisis is exacerbating in Australia and inequalities have become the norm. Though they always were there, it sometimes feels as though you deliberately choose to show me the places where humans are not taking charge, waiting for me to take a chance and recognize I can be the one to step up... I cannot expect others to make a change if I, myself, am not willing to make a difference, and perhaps, I am seeing the world, not as the world is, but as I am. I want to see a better world, therefore, I must change and evolve. Make myself a better version when I say "I am".

Going to therapy has got me questioning so many things... I learned about the abuses that had been passed down from generation to generation in my family tree, and have now started seeing the world from a different place, noticing issues that stem from land ownership, and the idea we have as humans to take control of things when so much in the universe is already it's own entity and doesn't really BELONG to us... We just happened to be there to share and enjoy its gifts.

At present, I have decided I will no longer be the one controlling the direction of this. Whether it be my career, my housing situation, my relationships... I've decided it's due time to let things flow and follow your will.

Though I understand I still have my own will and the agency to choose my actions, I have decided I will no longer act out of alignment fighting a battle against the world. From now onwards, I'll be moving at a comfortable rhythm, trusting the process and choosing to flow as needed guided by what feels right.

As a being of your existence, I know I have a purpose. I am here to serve you. This does not make me a slave, for we both benefit from this exchange.

You have the bigger picture and are always arranging things out there to protect my best interests 🥰

I do not know what the future holds, but I am inclined to become an artisan. A textile artist, and jeweler at this stage.

It is freeing to remember that I do not need a 5-year plan. I need to live in the eternal present and know that the path will reveal itself in due course.

I want to create and sell things that will have an impact and have just discovered a new form of circularity in business... One that traces its economic benefits back to the source, re-distributing income to everyone in the supply chain to ensure we can bridge inequalities globally. That sounds like a wonderful endeavor! One I would really love to build 💖

I also have a dream to travel to Bangladesh, where textiles and garments are largely made.

I'd love to trace my business back to the factories where the raw materials are processed, see the lifestyle of women and families that work in it, and see how we could make a difference to make their lives better. I hope you give me the chance to live through this.

In other news, this month we traveled to China, and it was a fantastic experience.

I had no idea I could like a country so much and was pleasantly surprised by how safe I felt there.

We also celebrated a few important birthdays, made important decisions, and continued to work on our beliefs to build a better life.

Australia is getting colder, winter is fully here. I am enjoying time off recovering from a massive burnout at work and hope I never have to be pushed to those limits again. As much as I've disliked the experience I must admit, I created this for myself. Receiving the fruits of my efforts was only fair... And so, I did.

Over 2 years ago now, I applied for a job I needed to stay in the country, did not believe I could get anything closer to my desires or interests, and sold my life away to stay here.

Though I have managed to stay, I have also managed to find out that this is not the path and direction I want my life to be heading towards, and the burnout has come as a result of sacrificing my true essence and true nature, in service of a forced endeavour.

Deep down, I still believe I won't be able to make a living doing what I love. I still think I'm going to have to sacrifice everything and say goodbye to financial safety and a lot of other lifestyle choices if I want to dedicate myself to arts and craftsmanship. However, I have decided I will no longer let this fear control me.

I have worked hard to make other people's dreams come true, and it is now the time to work hard to make a living of my own.

I trust in the guidance of the universe and truly believe in its messages. I'm walking from places that stem out of love and believe this force is the strongest one I need to take me to all the right places.

The right things will happen and the right things will come. June was just a transition, a moment of awakening, and a month of lessons learned.

It's been shaky. The winds have been rough... With hopes up high, we're adjusting the sails.

July, here we come ❤️